Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Baby Blues

Baby Wesley was the most exciting thing in Tyler's life. He constantly was holding him, or playing with him. Wesley became his number one priority.


But for some reason I was a little different, I didn't cling to him as I thought I would and after a month off of work and recooperating I quickly filled my time with cases.


Months were passing and I was almost to the top of my career, the precinct even pitched in to get me a fancy new trench coat and hat.


And Wesley was growing up so fast. It seemed almost that I would leave in the morning for work and come home to find Wesley a few inches taller and a little more wiser.

But he never seemed to noticed I was gone, or miss me in fact.


"That is the last time we order from that chinese resturaunt," My stomach was flipping about, grumbling and I knew I was about to hurl.


But like a normal bout of food poisoning it didn't go away after the first day, or even the first week. It seemed every morning I was tossing up my breakfast like clock work.


Tyler didn't notice me growing sick, he was still just so infatuated with Wesley. Which was good since I didn't grow so attached to him. God I was an awful mother, he'll hate me later on in life.


I guess I saw it coming, but how in the hell am I suppose to do this again? What if I still can't seem to find the affection for this one as well?

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